I am not going to tell you that it gets better (even though it does and it will) because it is not going to serve you. I have heard these words so many times, and when you are deep inside hopeless feelings, they do not do much of anything. In my experience, being told those words felt like a mockery. Could they not see how much pain I was in? Could they not see how much I was suffering? Those words made little to no impact on me during my darkest days. They washed over me and did not penetrate the depth of how excruciating the pain was.
What I am going to tell you is that you can survive. You can survive and you will. One of my favorite quotes is “You have survived 100% of your worst days. You can survive this one, too.” I have experienced countless days where taking another breath felt impossible. It was literally excruciating to be alive. Sometimes things do not “get better,” or they do not get better right away. Even so, that does not mean you will be unable to get through it.
You can be in pain, suffering, broken down and also continue on. Brokenness is not a dead end. It is merely one of the many stops we experience along the way. In my darkest times, the words I truly needed to hear were that even when things were not getting better, I would still get through. It was still possible to keep going and not give up.
So, keep going, because you are more resilient than you sometimes believe.
Keep going, because the only way out is through.
Keep going, because this world needs you in it.
Keep going, because hope is real and powerful and life-changing.
You can survive.
If you are in need of support, contact the national suicide prevention line 1-800-273-8255 or text “START” to 741-741 to receive 24/7 crisis support.