I have not posted since before Christmas, and for quite some time my posting on this site has been relatively infrequent. The days in which I posted several times in one week seem pretty foreign and unfamiliar to me. So, why did things change? I began this blog in 2015 while still undergoing treatment in PHP … Continue reading Why I Haven’t Been Blogging
Dear eating disorder, It's been a while since the two of us talked. Most days you are tucked in the way back of my head, and I barely hear your voice above more than a whisper. You stay there, waiting, and hoping that we will become friends again. You try to lure me in and … Continue reading Dear Eating Disorder,
Recovery is defined in the dictionary as, "a return to a normal state of health, mind, or strength." With a broken arm, recovery means resetting the bones into place, getting a cast, and letting the arm heal. With an eating disorder, it means stopping behaviors, potential weight management in one way or another, and regaining … Continue reading What Does Recovery Really Mean For Depression and Anxiety?
A little while ago I️ posted saying that I️ was back to blogging...and then I️ disappeared. That is because back in late October I️ went back to the hospital for help with anxiety, depression, and some medication management. I️ spent six days there and it helped me get to a safe and stable place. However, … Continue reading MAP PHP
Hey there! *Waves at your cute face* Sorry it has been a hot minute since I posted anything on my blog. Ok, two months is more than a "hot minute"...but I truly am planning on getting back to writing! I already have a few drafts waiting to be edited and posted soon, so look out … Continue reading (Finally) Back to Blogging!
Back in July the media, as well as the mental health community, were abuzz with discussion of a new film that debuted on Netflix. "To The Bone," tells the story of a young woman in her 20's battling anorexia. The film has been criticized for its graphic nature and triggering content. It is not a … Continue reading Feed – The Eating Disorder Movie That (Finally) Gets It Right
Yesterday, I returned home from a four-day vacation with my parents and best friend. Coincidentally and somewhat serendipitously, the days of my trip matched up with the days of my first stay in treatment three years ago. Three years ago was one of the lowest moments in my life. I nearly lost my life to … Continue reading Three Years in Recovery
Since the beginning of when I began sharing openly about my struggles with mental health, even before I had a blog and was only posting on my personal Facebook profile, I have been told time and time again that my vulnerability is admirable. I have been told that my openness is impressive and inspirational. I … Continue reading Talking About Adoption
To the Girl on Her First Day of ED Treatment - First and foremost, your mind is lying to you right now while it tries its very hardest to convince you that you are going to be the biggest, fattest, ugliest girl in the room. It is lying to you when it says that it … Continue reading To the Girl on Her First Day of Eating Disorder Treatment
Recovery does not have a time limit - The saying goes "compare and despair, " and it definitely rings true when it comes to recovery. I know girls who enter treatment once and get out fully recovered, and I also know girls, including myself, who return more than once to treatment. No one is better or … Continue reading Six Things Eating Disorder Recovery Has Taught Me